Finding the balance between selfless and self-sacrifice
Your lips on hers and the cold wind caressing mine
The space between your growth; spiritual awakening
And my seemingly endless sleepless nights
It’s the distance of space and time and we always come back – isn’t that right?
I try to remember, the oceans and a dream of lavender and the trailer my dad died in
A lake in between to cross to his new home, so different
A space in between, the balance of you and me
It’s not that far and it’s always been right there, on the tip of my tongue
In each moment of despair
The way I knew she was gone before the doctor’s declared – her heart was still beating but her soul was no longer there
So close to crossing that ocean but not to die – I hope not to die
Just to understand and to finally feel like I am alive, no longer haunted upstairs
When I cry for you, for him, for God – no longer screaming at my mother to remind her she is gone
Finding the balance between you and me
The cards say yes, give it a year, and let him dream
Of the space between my growth; spiritual awakening
Until this witching hour ends and a new night begins
It’s how it always happens when the veil is thin, we return to each other time and time again
Am I waking up to the memories of now, before, after – a dream of hope, a dream to come
The atmosphere is between us but if I leave, can I still breathe?
A space between, the balance of you and me
I have to believe because the moment I stop, wait what was I saying? It’s on the tip of my tongue
In this moment of despair
I know this is chosen and if I could just remember then maybe I wouldn’t be here – I’d be back home, a place my soul can no longer go
So close to crossing these ocean galaxies, but not to die – Dear god please don’t let this mean I am going to die
Just to understand to reach out and finally touch your hand – no longer haunted upstairs
When I run to you now, you will always be there – not hidden or just out of reach because I belong
In the space between selfless and self-sacrifice
I choose me. I choose you. And I do this every single time
I come back into the fold for a moment, stepping behind the veil
Of you
Of me
It’s always been you
It’s always been me
My sun, my moon, my stars
I am your galaxy
I am that I am
And I will always continue to be
For you
For me
Serendipity Minds 